Lost in Life

Have you ever lost so much in your life that you've felt just LOST?!?! You don't really know who you are anymore? You don't know how to get back to who you are or once were? Maybe you never will yet maybe there is more out there that you just don't know about yet.

I look back in my life and have lost so many things that have meant alot to me. People, friends and family, whether its from moving or just losing touch, I've lost time with them. I've lost connections with them and it saddens me. I've lost jobs I really liked. I've recently lost my career due to health reasons. I sometimes get angry about the fact that I broke my back literally to work in a career that was supposed to be about helping people, but what it turned out to be was helping my employer make money and help his practice become established and busy, all the while I lost time with my daughter because I had to work the scheduled hours. I simply lost time and my health. I lost the ability to say NO. I lost MOST of the satisfaction and rewards my career was supposed to have given me because of the selfish attitudes money and status can give someone.

So, now in my next pathway in life I do not want to lose any more ground. I don't want to lose any more moments in life. I want this time in my life to be of self worth. It's time to make myself happy and find those things that will get me back into living life. I need to find out who I am. I dedicate 2009 to being about losing myself in the "moments" of love, happiness, romance, and living more of life on MY time! If I don't take chances now..I may lose the rest of who I am! I want to be alive and feel it..I don't want to be lost in life! I just want to cherish more moments on my time. Don't you?